self interview/self portrait [a postmodern dada]

A POEM FROM THE NEW BEYOND BABYLON CD/DIGITAL RELEASE THAT INCLUDES BLACKHOUSE MUSIC ON THIS POEM SONG:

self interview/self portrait

[a postmodern dada]


by billy lamont



For R.S. Pearson


self interview-

the problem of suffering

<—pascal talk some sense into me

—>franz kafka is stalking me

—>baudelaire mind is thinking me

<—need to wash my mind with The Holy Bible

<—and then dry it with r. s. pearson’s phiolosophy


I woke up dreaming of Christian reformation

senses reeling with andre breton’s surrealist manifestoes

went drinking with martin luther and bono

discussed theology in the corner pub

pints of ale and irish whiskey

clashing with The Holy Bible in my soul

like holy rock and roll-

we shared belly laughs

and prayers for the common man


I stepped outside into the cool, fall air

alone

lit a miniature cigar from santo domingo

and took a slow drag

soul of sky was masked by a nuclear cloud

did someone cut me?

didn’t realize I was slowly bleeding

did you warn me?

sorry I wasn’t listening


~stoic survival~


like a wound with a new stitch

like a nervous twitch

I’ve been living on the border of an unfulfilled wish

the local town’s church bell rings out

faithfully, like it always does

every hour

The Spirit is the same

but the times sure have changed


mirror perspective

a photograph

I am an outsider amongst outsiders

a rebel amongst rebels

never could find the outside of society for me

in this subculture of conformity

<—The Holy Bible is the message guiding me

<—kiergard’s writing like a lamp illuminating me

<—escher’s lines keep redefining me

<—Lord have mercy


self portrait-                    ^

GOD is... I am...

GOD is... I am...

GOD is my dada JESUS is the wonderful I AM


I think you like picasso, all perspectives at once

[bet this is how GOD sees it}


feel you passionately like van gogh

[i know this is GOD’s holy passion]


love and kiss her like klimpt’s “the kiss”

[know GOD’s desire for us through this]


i see JESUS THE CHRIST’s cross like dali

[awakens me to GOD’s higher view; JESUS’s amazing power,

infinite love and humility]


have i expressed this like jackson pollack’s paint drippings?

[oh to be a unique splash of color in God’s expressionistic masterpiece!]


I AM

I AM

JESUS IS the magnificient I AM!